I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I feel… empty. Useless.
I feel like it’s hard to breathe. I feel stressed. I feel tired. I feel lost.
And I have no one to talk to. Not a single person in the world
I just find myself crying so much lately. And all these problems are just piling on my shoulders. I feel like the world is against me. And all I want is a friend.
Compact ones that will fit side by side in our Jeep Patriot (for it being a Jeep you would be surprised how small the backseat is). Preferably $150 or less. I never really looked much into our carseats before purchasing them and decided to today. After doing that I have decided that I’d like to buy them new ones.
Pumping and dumping is SO SAD.
On another note…
Since I am unable to breastfeed for two days because of the general anesthesia (Lily will be using some pumped milk and some formula. I wish I had pumped enough but I know it won’t be enough) I figured I could take the pain medicine I was prescribed for at least the first two days. AND I WISH IT WOULD KICK IN SO I COULD GO BACK TO SLEEP.
Also, sleeping with my head elevated to keep swelling down is really hard and uncomfortable. I like to sleep on my stomach or side with one or two pretty flat pillows. Blah.